thump. thump.

I can't do it. I really can't finish my homework. Or I will die. This feeling, this unending doom will consume me. I understand now, why I failed math so many times before. Why I've ever failed anything. Stress and I don't cope well together. When I'm in a stressful situation, I find some way to flee. And with school, this means giving up on my homework. Just as I'm doing now, when I should be working on the stack of papers behind me. But I can't do it. I'll have a panic attack. Or a heart attack. Something in which I'm being attacked.
Any who. Aside from that, today went pretty well. It was more comment ci comment ca then anything. It had its highs and lows.

CRAP. Tyra Banks is on. That means it's well past bedtime. CRAP.CRAP.CRAP.

BACK ON SUBJECT. My Highs and Lows of September 16, 2008...

Low- I woke up late this morning. I actually woke up several times this morning which may seem good at first but this always makes me sleep in more then I should, because I think ' I have another hour ' and continue to be unconscious longer then I should.
High- But I got to school very very early this morning. Actually before my bus got there. BEFORE the doors even opened. I'm never at school on time. But today was different. Gasp.
Low- I didn't know what was going on in french class with the story. But do I ever really know what goes on in that class? lol AND I didn't finish my math homework which sucked in math class, PLUS Joanna wasn't in English/school today. Which sucked even more.
High- We didn't have to turn in our psychology homework from last night which, as you probably know, I didn't do lol. I need a day to just do all of my make up work. And I talked to people I never see much anymore. You don't even know how happy this makes me.
Just about the same amount of highs and lows today. Well, plus the low of the anxiety of me not finishing my homework.
" I'm a good christian."
.This was probably the dumbest thing I've heard today. One kid in my class was telling another kid that he didn't listen to secular music because he was a quote good christian unquote. This is the more incredibly stupid thing I've ever heard. Yes, some music isn't good to listen to but by saying your a better christian then someone else just cause you listen to 'christian' music? No. It depends on the song, not the music.
Geez.
/Rant.
ANYWAY.
Dude. This Tyra episode is depressing yo.

And my heart is beating super fast. Not cause of Tyra though.

I think I'm having a heart attack.