As the blood pours from my veins.

So the moment finally came, for me to give blood today. I was excited, because giving blood was something I've wanted to do since last year when I first realized our school had a blood drive. I'm not even sure if I knew about it in 9th grade, because I didn't really pay much attention to certain things ( mostly because Mr.Man was there ;D and because I was a freshie and didn't realize things lol ) but yeah. I enjoy helping people without them exactly knowing I've helped. I don't know. It's weird, and most people don't get what I mean. So yeah. Supposedly I saved three lives today. Woohoo. But yeah.
With my luck, I ended up waking up late today. I planned on waking up early so that I could eat a descent breakfast, but that didn't end up happening at all. I woke up and did everything in a hurry. I pretty much had candy for breakfast. Not good. I prayed to God that when the time came for me to donate, I wouldn't get nauseous or pass out or get sick. Something I'm pretty much prone to do. My stomach usually isn't my friend. Anyway, the time came for me to do, and I was feeling extremely nervous. Not because of the needle, but that they either wouldn't let me give blood because of my almost empty belly or I would be the one person to pass out right after I was done donating. They took my iron level twice ( twice because the first time, the test said it was too low. Surprise, surprise.) and my blood pressure was pretty high, and so was my temperature. The whole time the nurse kept asking if I was okay because I guess I looked sick, and according to my test, it seemed I pretty much was.
When they cleaned my arm, it tickled. A lot. She had to like, scrub my arm for 30 seconds and I felt really stupid because the entire time I just wanted to squirm and giggle. My stomach was doing pretty fine but then right at that moment I felt myself starving, and I just thought, Oh God, I'm going to pass out. My life is being drained for me as I'm on an empty stomach. I should woke up on time. Why did I forget to set my alarm? The nurses kept asking questions like, "Are you okay?" and "Did you eat a good breakfast?" I just always said yes. Not good.
All in all, it went pretty easy. When I sat up, I felt kinda woozy for about half a second, then I felt normal again. After my walker to me to the resting area, an older nurse woman offered me a drink and my walker got me some pizza. I was so thankful for food. I inhaled it, and forced myself to drink the drink, even though I didn't want to. I guess the older nurse saw that I swallowed my pizza without chewing, so she asked if I wanted a new one. I felt slightly embarrassed because I was eating like I've never ate before, but I didn't care and I told her I did. After my stomach had food in it, I went back to class and I feeling ten millions times better. The only things that I really encountered ( because the iron levels and such ) was after going back up the stairs to class I felt so tired and out of breath, as if I've just ran a mile.
My blood is ugly. All blood is ugly. It's not that pretty red stuff on tv. It's thick gewy red stuff that spills from you. I wasn't grossed out at the blood drive until I looked at someone elses full bag of blood, and the fresh blood pumping from their veins. I shuttered and looked away. I didn't watch mine pump out either (even though I normally watch the nurses carefully, for I am paranoid) but I did watch them fill some of the test tubes and such. It was weird, because every time the nurse filled a new tube, my arm vibrated. Weird.
My friends are stupid. Pretty much all of them persecuted me for giving blood. They punched me, yelled at me, and called me names. I was pretty pissed, but whatever. I don't care anymore. I'm doing it again next year ( with breakfast this time ).

They Call It Murder

I have a headache right now that's absolutely murder. It started out with last night. I didn't get much sleep because I couldn't fall asleep and my brother kept calling the house. When I finally did fall asleep it was probably about 4 am and I knew I had to get for sunday school in a few hours. Of course I was inable to wake up for it. I really wanted to go because I knew for sunday school Jay Smith was going to be speaking but when I woke up it was 9:45 and I was already late and I was sooooo tired I could hardly even get up. So I went back to bed. Then I woke up again for church at 10:30 and I knew I was going to bed late so I had to jump and out of and hurry to get dressed. My contacts were dry ( which is why you shouldn't sleep with them in but I was too lazy to take them out the night before ) but I didn't have time to take them out and hydrate them before church. So I made it to church about 5 minutes late and it was more packed than usually, probably because Jay was there to speak. He compared muslims with christianity and what the muslims believe and such. Apparently earlier some muslims were there recording him with a camera but I wasn't there so idk. He talked about how us two religions are alike and different and how Mohamad was less relevant than Jesus.
So then after church was over we all went to the social hall to get lunch. After lunch we went back to listen to the rest of Jay's lecture and this time there were some muslims. Jay talked about how brave these people are for showing up because most christians wouldn't be able to go to a moss and be willing to listen to what they have to say and be able to say we were christians without being scared or apologizing for believing what we believe. Which is sad, because that's true. So once again Smith compared the karan (sp) to the bible and when he was done we all were asking questions. He asked one of the Muslims ( Dr..Something?) if he had any questions and he said no. Then Jay asked us if any of us had any questions for him and they guy said that he was just sitting there listening to the lecture and he loves God just like we do and that Jesus was a wonderful prophet and that us to religions aren't that different. Jay asked him if he thought that Jesus was God and the man said no and I guess that's when they both were starting to get upset. Jay said , "well then we aren't the same because Jesus is God" and thats when the 'talking match' began. The doctor got up to leave and as he was walking down the aisle Jay and him were talking at the same time and Jay told him not to get upset and the dr. said he wasn't upset but you could clearly see he was because he wasn't speaking normally now but getting louer but not quite yelling. He said ( paraphrased) " I don't know why you christians feel the need to prove everyone wrong when you believe that what you believe is right? Why can't you just let me believe in my Mohamad and leave us be?" He was getting pretty angry and a lot of us were troubled. Finally he left. Smith asked us, " was any of you disturbed by this?" and we all pretty much nodded. Another muslim man ( or was he christian?...) stood up and said , "Yeah, I was pretty disturbed by that and if you don't mind I would go and speak to him?" and left to go to talk to the Dr. He came back after a while though. His family was with him ( whose son looked especially familiar ).Meanwhile we then talked about the reaction of the Doctor and how we should handle when we're in situations like that or what to when we're attacked by all sorts of questions that we don't know how to answer. It was very interesting.
In the middle of the meeting I had to run out because my contact was absolutely killing me. I couldn't even keep my eye open. I ran home and took it out, and went back with only one contact in for the rest of the meeting. It was weird because Jay Smith was walking back and fourth but only when he was in the middle he was blurry, but when he was all the way to the left, he was clear and when he was all the way to the right he was clear. ( I took my right contact out) but just in the middle was he blurry..hm...
Anyway, having one contact in lead to my major headache, which I've had for the last couple hours. ( like 6 hours actually). But I did get to drive today :) I finally got my permit on Friday, after waiting forever. Theres one bonus.

Day of birth

Today started out with a balloon. Actually, it started at midnight when my sister and I were playing rockband before she left for baltimore for her surgery. But todays SCHOOL day started out with a balloon. A big cake shaped balloon. And basically every mod since I got a new gift. They were all signed with "from your secret friend" or "someone who cares" or something of that sort. At first I thought they were from my sister, but then I got gifts from her later throughout my school day and they were signed by her. So I was utterly confused. First mod it was the balloon. Then second mod I was called down to the office and recieve a giant penguin and singing birthday card from my sister. Then again in second mod I got flowers. Then in third mod I got a box of cookies (with each gift I got a card) and a penguin from dominique ( which was a penguin btw, which surprised me cause I didn't know she knew I loved penguins) and then fourth mod I got a book. It was weird getting flowered with presents and such and weird walking down the hall with a giant balloon but I didn't mind lol. Fourth mod I figured out that my "secret" friend was Becca, because on the p.s is said " is your joseph in this class?" an inside joke only Becca would know, not my sister. So I was like "BECCA AHH" xD. Then after school I got David to do a backflip for me :D that made me super happy lol. Inspite the fact that my balloon flew away when I went back inside to get my giant penguin. Rawr. D:<
Mr.Peters picked me up from school and took me to my piano, then afterwords Jean took me to the diner to work. Jansen and him got me 2 penguin earrings, a stuffed penguin, and plastic penguin..thing and penguin headsets :) wooooo. At work Melanie got me like, 10 bags of skittles (if you know me at all, skittles in one of the many things that usually on my mind) and we tried to light something for candles to put on a slice of chocolate cake ( straws didn't work lol ) and so we got matched ( which I had to blow out super fast , rofl ) and I couldn't even finish the whole slice.
lol lol lol. And at lunch today Lorraine and I laughed so hard, that my stomach almost exploded and I was crying super hard. Mrs. Whatsherface (crowl? Crawl? however its spelled) was wearing a red tank top and tight pants. We were like "whoo sexyy" and couldn't stop laughing. Everyone thought we were crazy XDD. lol.
All and all, today was a good day. Much better then I thought. Actually, I thought it'd be absolutly dreadful.

it was great.

Homecoming.

I can't say I was looking forward to this past weekend. But all in all I did have fun. Friday was a half day so that was good. I was extremely tired though and in desperate need of a nap. I went to Friday Night Live and that was pretty cool, although I missed them playing 'Never Alone' Cause I was at home changing clothes and getting money for the football game. WHICH WE WON BTW. :) I believe it was our first win of the year. Whoohoo. I came with Becca, Dave, Renee and Mel but They had to leave early so the rest of the night I hung with my other friends. It was a good night, until the game was over.
I figured no one would take me directly from North, and I didn't want to be standing there alone all night, so I took a ride home with Rachel back to her house. But still no one wanted to pick me up. My mom told me to freakin' walk home ( btw, their house isn't close OR safe to walk around at night. Alone. In the dark.) and my sister refused saying she was tired of helping people. But luckily I was able to get a ride from my cousin. When I arrived home everyone was confortably sitting around watching tv. My sister then took her friend home.I think that's when I lost it, because I've been feeling super depressed for the last month and I guess I finally cracked. I went to my room and cried. My mom called me to her room and through my sobs , forced me to explain why ( And I lack the ability to talk and cry at the same time ) and yeah. I won't get into that any farther. I did feel a tab better after that. The next morning I worked 8 hours at the diner, waitressing and my feet were killing me.
After I got home Mel came over, and I showered, got dressed and hair done to get ready for the dance. I though it started at 7 and so we got early like, 2 hours too early lol. So with nothing better to do we danced around my house and took pictures of us and with strangers cars :). After FINALLY it was time to the dance, we got there and I couldn't even find my usual people. The dance defiantly wasn't as fun as it was last year or the year before, but it was all right. I think it was Thursday or Wednesday, they made an announcement that said 'Anyone caught grinding will be kicked out of homecoming immediately' or something along those lines. wow. I think more people did it because of the announcement. Eww, and some people are so disgusting too. They're like, practicably having babies on the dance floor. I will admit, I did do it. But only really jokingly with my friends. We aren't really hardcore dancers, like everyone practically is on homecoming night. But the times I wasn't bored, it was pretty fun lol. It was kinda annoying sometimes, not having a date, but I had fun with my friends. Mel was technically my date though lol. She wore a yellow dress and I wore her white one. Everyone had pretty dresses, but Olivia's and Madison's dresses were my favorite :) Soo. Let me see if I can remember who I danced with. Uhm. Mel, Olivia, Madison, Alondra, Lorraine, Kristen, Paige, Ashlee, Rachel, Sianna, Victor, Spencer, Maria, a couple of random people and the list goes on and on. My feet STILL hurt and I wasn't even wearing my heels the whole night. And I think I dislocated one of my hips. lol. AND MY KNEE. Ugh, man does that hurt! lol.
Today at church everyone wore the dress/outfit they wore last night. Smithsburg had their homecoming last night too, so not just North kids were dressed up. My ubber tired. I wanted to finish this book that Katie gave me, but my sister FREAKING LOST IT. I started getting into it too. Man. C'est la vie I guess. I'd post pictures of homecoming on if my computer wasn't so stupid. Maybe later.