"Perfect" man.

There's absolutely no such thing as the perfect man. Or the perfect anyone for that matter. But honestly, we all know that we all have a list of things we find in a boy/girl that we know would be super amazing for them to have such qualities. It's not a check list. It's usually a mental list and you don't like, stand at the alter on your wedding day and then be like, " Um, sorry. I can't marry you. You only have 43 of the 60 things I need." No way. But like I said, it's usually mental, but I decided to record it. There is no particular order, although some things are more important than others. Here's the first 15; but trust me, it will grow. I'm posting this because once upon a time I said I would. So here it is...

1.Must be clean. I don't have a germ phobia or anything, but certain things gross me out to the maximum. Like, dry hands and feet. Which moves to the next one...
2. Well moisturized. I seriously have a problem with this. I put probably ten pounds of lotion a day and spaz out when I have dry hands or feet. Especially dry feet. That makes me internally scream whenever I see someone with such things.
3.Faith. I am a religious person. But not a shove bible down your throat. I want him to be cool about it and afraid to say what he believe in. And NOT a two faced hypocrite. I hate that.
4. Sweet like candy. Lol. This is more like a "Mr.man" sweet, Mr.man was like one of the sweetest people I know. Sweet like awww.
5. Artistic. Art is just 'art'. It's music or writing or dancing or whatever. I believe everyone has a little creative art side inside of them. And I find pretty much all forms of art fascinating.
6. Funny. I am a GIANT goof ball. I need to laugh in order to live. If you can't make me smile, then your doing quite the opposite, or boring me to tears. Both of which is terrible.
7. Smart, but not super genius. I don't like stupid people lol. But I'm not exactly the brightest bulb in the pack, so I want to understand what he's talking about. But I hate people who constantly correct grammar and attack you with facts that you defiantly don't care about.
8. Likes my friends. This may seem silly, but my friends matter to be. He doesn't have to be BFF's with them all, but at least respect them or be nice to them.
9. Nerdy :) . I like my nerds. Perferably anime nerds :D or even book nerds :D :D. I like my anime and my books, and I'd like to have nerdy filled conversations with this dude. Aha.
10. R-E-S-P-E-C-T. Especially my mother. XD Which is tough because even I struggle with this. But yeah. It annoys me when people are so disrespectful to practically everyone they know. Ugghh.
11. Independent. Nothing more annoying then a broke needy man. lol seriously. But he doesn't have to be super rich. Or rich at all. Heck, he could be dirt poor and I wouldn't care. As long as he can take care of himself.
12. Music . This falls under art, yes. But this needs it's own number. I love music. I looooveee musicals. Lol it'd be wicked awesome if he'd sing a long with me to Phantom of the Opera. :) Also if he and I had the same taste in music. ( which is easy as long as he's open to anything. Well. Except country. )
13. Cookinggg. If he doesn't know already, he's willing to learn. And yes, there are a lot of people in the world who claim they can cook, but I want him to actually know how to make something other than scrambled eggs, french toast and mac-n-cheese.
14. Not 1 in a million. By this I mean-- I honestly rather not him be 1 of ten thousand brothers and sisters. Now, this isn't a necessity, but I'd rather him be 1 of 2 at the least or 1 of 4 at the most. Idk. I feel like the fewer children the stronger the bond. Plus I wouldn't have to know two million people.
15. "Put on your red shoes and dance the blues." I like to dance/watch people dance/think about dancing. whether it's for serious or goofing around ( most likely goofing around xD) I want someone to be crazy and dance with me lol.

Well that's the first few. I must go now and plus I'm drawing a blank. But there is more. But yeah.

The times have come, and things have past

I posted some this to my livejournal, and I figured I'd post it to my blogger. When I was ranting, I wasn't sure where I wanted to post it, so I figured both. People recently have been annoying me and ranting is the best way to get things out, in my opinion.

So here it is:

I may say "you" but it might not mean "you" it could mean "her" "him" or "they" depending on your situation, but I'm writing this rant as a letter to "you" because people are stupid. So here a letter to the people:

YOU ARE SO STUPID! Seriously. Okay, I know I'm only 16 and I know most certainly that I don't know everything in the world, but I do know that you have little brains. I ignored such ignorance at first ( in the literal definition of the word ) but wow. Really? Okay, I didn't say anything at first when you kept talking about how in love you are, but then it seems like a month later you're in love with someone else. Sorry to break it to you sweety, you're not in love. I thought I was just being skeptical, thinking that how would I know what you're feeling or not, but no. This is straight up stupidity.
Okay. I'm going into several specific people here--no names included.
Approximately 3 months ago, you met some person and claimed how he was the best thing ever and how it was amazing what he did to you and that you were in love. And then a few months later your talking about how you got in touch with an ex boyfriend of yours and that you love him and don't know what to do. AND NOW, CURRENTLY, IN 2009, you talking about a completely different person and how you two are in love. So wait--I'm confused. Your in love with 3 people? 5? 6? I can't keep up. AND YOU! I can't even put a number to the people you 'loved'. You pretty much 'love' people for a week and then get over it. I'm sorry but you have no comprehension. You pretty much date all my friends, talk to me about it, and when your lonely you have the nerve to ask me out? I'm sorry. I don't like sloppy seconds. You're a cool kid and all, but not...hm..I can't even put it into words.
AND YOU! You are something else entirely. You claim that you've loved this person pretty much from the moment you layed eyes on them, those many years ago. But...over the course of several months you had multiple crushes. Can you be in love and crush on someone at the same time? No...I don't think so. This rant could go on forever, but no. It won't.
Pretty much, you don't know what you're talking about. And without ranting, I would have screamed all of this in your faces. Sadly, about 90 % of the people I thought about while ranting are my friends.

The world is full of bigger problems then you and your boyfriend/girlfriend issues, like thousands of dolphins being slaughtered at this very moment.

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Anyway, it's 3 days into the new year and I want to make my resolutions. I pretty much always fail when I have these, but this year, I want it to be my year. It feels like it wasn't even 9 years ago when the turn of the millinium came, and now it's already 2009 and I feel like my life is going way too fast. I don't look forward to getting old.
And I don't like people who do. Okay, I admit that I'm looking forward to college, but I hate when people are like "Omg, I can't wait till I graduate, then I'm running miles and miles away from this place." Actually, I'm just annoyed when my friends say that, it's like they don't even care that after we graduate we'll pretty much NEVER see each other again.
Anyway, I kinda got off topic. My resolutions:
-Get closer to God. { over the summer I was doing super well, and I want to be on that level again, if not better. And I want to stay that way.}
-Get a job. { Seriously, I need money so bad that it's crazy. And I want to help my mom and such. }
-Get in shape. { I remember two summers ago I was sooo healthy and happy and in shape ;) now I'm flabby and fat. I'm gross. }
- Do super well in school. { I'm doing much better this year than I have been doing in a while. I noticed that I starting failing classes in 8th grade after my dad died and having been doing too well in school since. 9th grade wasn't all too bad, I passed all my classes with good grades, but then in 10th grade I pretty much failed. I failed math badly. But so far, I'm doing good this year, and I want to do even better till the end of the school year.}
-I want to get out of my shell { I started doing this at Roxbury which was one of the hardest weeks of my life. Being there only with Melanie, who both fortunatly and unfortunatly is the most outgoing person in the world, I was forced to do things I wasn't comfortable with. But I couldn't tag around with her the whole time ( trust me, I tried the first day or two ) but then I had to go on my own and talk to new people on my own, which was soooo hard at first but then it got easier. I'm not saying I want to be super outgoing ( shy people do rule the world after all :D ) but I want to be comfortable enough to do what I need to do and not be scared of people }
-Pick a college and be one hundred percent sure I want it. And pick a few back ups. { I REALLY want to go to Towson, but the more I think about it, the less sure I am that it has everything that I need in life. And I'm not even 100% sure what I want as a career. All I've ever thought about was astronomy but... I suck at math and hate many other things that come with it. And because all I've thought about was astronomy and can't think about doing anything else. }
-Make a new friend { I've made new friends this school year, but this year of 2009 I want to make an amazing life long friend, even though I already have some of those I'd like to meet someone super cool. }
-Over come a fear { I will be realistic here. There is no way in HELL ( pardon moi ) that I can over come fear in spiders, BUTTTT. I want to overcome many of my other fears. }
-Break some bad habits. Enough said.

Yups. Those are my goals for Oh nine.