I'm dying. At least I feel like I am. I've been sick for the past eternity and I'm so ...well, sick of it. It all began with my eye. My eyelid strangely enough was really hurting. It even hurt to just blink. So I woke up the next day to discover that my entire right eyelid had become horribly and hideously swollen. Eventually my mother had to take me to the ER, which turns out I either had an allergic reaction so something or an infection of some sort (though I think it was the allergic reaction, because now I can't seem to wear makeup without my eyelids puffing up slightly...wonderful.) Two days later we had to rush to the hospital in Baltimore---not for myself but for my sister---and I was feeling sniffly but not too bad. A week later I wake up with horrible pain in my right ear, and I can't hear out of it. Keep in mind that I have no health insurance, so it wasn't like I could be all, "Oh! I'll just go to the doctor and he can fix me!" Instead I did something and I'm not sure if it was stupid or if I screwed myself over but I tried various self medication methods...Well though it did slightly get better, here I am almost two weeks later and I still have a difficult time hearing people. Oh—one of those self medication methods included putting garlic juice in the ear. WHAT. THE. EFF. WAS. I. THINKING. That shit burn like yell. I'm sorry but there is seriously no nice way of saying that. If anyone out there is reading this, and you have an ear infection, do not I repeat DO NOT put that crap in your ear hole unless to hate yourself and love pain. Even then, it's still a horrible idea.
Now I have either a chest infection or a really bad cold. Or both---who knows. Fact of the matter is, I can't not cough up my lung every few minutes. Since I already missed two days of classes I really shouldn't miss anymore because I'm so far behind. I was hoping to get straight A's this semester but that idea seems to be fading far far away...So basically I've been sick for the past 3 weeks. Actually longer, because I had a cold before I went to the ER for my eye. Ugh.
School this semester is probably the most interesting semester of my college life by far. I...I have friends lol. Not to say I didn't have friends before, that's completely untrue. But what's interesting is that I have friends who are all for the most part are friends with one another, and hang out with each other around campus. For the past two years I'd see and eat lunch with a friend or two, or talk or hangout with them but never with groups at a time. I'm kind of loving it, but it's totally not something I'm used to. I guess I've grown accustomed to being a loner---which is something I think any college student has to be able to handle (being alone that is.) I remember back maybe 4 years ago, I HATED being alone. Absolutely hated it. I always felt weird and awkward when I had to go somewhere by myself. What forced me out of that mindset was either my first or second Creation, when I realized that I seriously could not depend of someone else in order to go or do anything. Sianna and Rachel kept going off by themselves or not wanting to go where I wanted, and it was impossible to truly be satisfied. That same summer, Melanie started dating Eric and being the third wheel was not even slightly fun. That was the summer I really learned to deal with it, and now I like my alone time. But now at school since I have a hangout spot, I feel like I have to readjust myself back into the society of being social. Which I suck at, haha.
Speaking of being social---boys. Such a dumb species of human, no? I guess I shouldn't lump them all together but...I suppose I have yet to have a fond experience to dwell upon. But I simply refuse to get into a funk. Right before Roxbury I was deep in one, and after the 11 days of being there I was truly transformed. I felt as though God was telling me to have faith and to let go of all my bitterness. Which I didn't even realize until then that I had so much of. Now I'm boarder line into that funk again but I don't ever want to go back. I do eventually want a relationship...but there are some things I won't compromise. And though I do feel insecure about my looks at times like most human beings, I always feel like that's not the main problem. I sometimes feel as though my personality isn't the standard for whatever a guy wants. Sometimes it sucks but...most of the time I wonder what their problem is because I'd like to believe I'm awesome haha. Ahh, but that's enough about the mushy deep stuff about my feelings. Too personal.
I should probably get glasses or something. It's almost halfway through the semester and I've gone without glasses or contacts. The only contact I had was lost at Creation and since I lack health insurance and money I haven't been able to get new ones. It really sucks because I can't ever see the board. Like, at all. I've been able to print out the power point slides so I can have them while the professor goes over them but if he or she writes something on the board I'm usually squinting or terrible screwed. It's usually the latter.
Well, I guess that's all for now. It took me two hours to even type all this out because I kept getting interrupted or had to stop and hold my nephew. Hopefully my next update wont be in 2013. It seems like ever year I update my blogs less and less. 2008 I was quite the ranter.
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Oh. My. Good. Ness.
So it's 2012. And I find that hilarious the more I say it. For one thing, when I look at things like blogger or livejournal, I just never imagined this far in life. I mean, it's just weird. It seems like it was only yesterday it was 1998. Haha. I definitely do not want to imagine what 2022 is going to feel like. If we make it that far. Which brings me ultimately to the reason why I find it funny that it is now 2012. Because the world is going to end. THE WORLD IS GOING TO END!
Juuuuust kidding. I'm totally kidding. But most people aren't. I mean, I thought Y2K was ridiculous, but the "twenty-twelve" hype? Most ridiculous of all. Seriously. I suppose people nowadays are seriously trying to justify it and stuff exclaiming, "The Mayans! The Mayan calender ends on December 21, 2012! We gonna die y'all." (Okay, maybe they don't say exactly, "we gonna die y'all" but pretty much that's how a lot of people feel.) And so begins panic that we will never see another New Years. Uh oh. But okay, maybe something WILL happen. Who knows. But I doubt that it's the end of the world. Because I've already survived that numerous times.
The last time the world ended was a few months ago. I don't remember the date exactly, because I don't really pay attention to those sort of things but I do remember lots and lots of idiots selling all their belongings and giving them to Mr. Worldsgonnaend ( Idk his name) and living like there was no tomorrow. When time came for us to be raptured, nothing happened. And then everyone was all, "No! It's 12am Israeli time!" or "No! It's 12am New York time!"...well when 12am had passed pretty much every where in the world, it was save to say that the world didn't end. That, or God thinks we're all unworthy and perhaps raptured a handful of people...but I think it's the first rather than the latter.
That situation was a bit different than 2012 however. That was just some guy who perhaps saw a lot of nice cars and thought, "Hmm..maybe if I tell everyone that the world's ending then they'll give me their cars for free? Sweet." But I am excited for December 21st. Just to see the reaction of people. As long as it isn't violence or mass suicide---that wouldn't be fun. But this year is going to be different. I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES. (I'm at school, so I'm slightly paranoid that someone is going to come behind me and read things I've typed in all caps and be like, "wtflip is she talking about o_O" but ANYWAY..) Reading back on my old blogs, especially from '08 makes it so weird knowing that it is four years later. The fact that I'm halfway through college scares me more than anything else though...
So I posted a lot back in 2008, and I was reading something I wrote about my contacts driving my eye insane and how I had to run home and take one out, which was the right eye. I find that really interesting because the SAME EXACT THING HAPPENED TODAY. I woke up mad early this morning, because my sister had to work early and therefore needed the car. My eye was bothering me but I thought I'd be able to handle it for the day. Wrong. I was so wrong. We went to the bank first because I had to get something signed for my Intro to Education class, and the whole time my right eye was on fire. I could barely look the bank teller in the eye because every time I opened them, my right eye burned so badly that I had to close it again. It was awful. After we left I told Stephanie, " I don't think I can handle this. Do you have contact solution?!" She didn't, and so I sat there thinking of ways to removing the entire right side of my face. So I asked again to see if she had a contact case. She did, but we both realized it would be futile without solution. Finally, I begged her to take me to the hospital, so that we could go to the drug store in the hospital (the hospital is really close to the college) and get solution. As soon as I could I took out my right contact and have been blind in that eye all day. Just like back in '08. Some things have never changed.
So far nothing dramatic or drastically different has happened this year. Granted, it's only day 11 of 2012, and there's about 355 days left so who knows. This year's a leap year, which I'm really excited about. I want to do something fun on the day that won't come back for another four years.
I still can't believe how fast life is going.
Juuuuust kidding. I'm totally kidding. But most people aren't. I mean, I thought Y2K was ridiculous, but the "twenty-twelve" hype? Most ridiculous of all. Seriously. I suppose people nowadays are seriously trying to justify it and stuff exclaiming, "The Mayans! The Mayan calender ends on December 21, 2012! We gonna die y'all." (Okay, maybe they don't say exactly, "we gonna die y'all" but pretty much that's how a lot of people feel.) And so begins panic that we will never see another New Years. Uh oh. But okay, maybe something WILL happen. Who knows. But I doubt that it's the end of the world. Because I've already survived that numerous times.
The last time the world ended was a few months ago. I don't remember the date exactly, because I don't really pay attention to those sort of things but I do remember lots and lots of idiots selling all their belongings and giving them to Mr. Worldsgonnaend ( Idk his name) and living like there was no tomorrow. When time came for us to be raptured, nothing happened. And then everyone was all, "No! It's 12am Israeli time!" or "No! It's 12am New York time!"...well when 12am had passed pretty much every where in the world, it was save to say that the world didn't end. That, or God thinks we're all unworthy and perhaps raptured a handful of people...but I think it's the first rather than the latter.
That situation was a bit different than 2012 however. That was just some guy who perhaps saw a lot of nice cars and thought, "Hmm..maybe if I tell everyone that the world's ending then they'll give me their cars for free? Sweet." But I am excited for December 21st. Just to see the reaction of people. As long as it isn't violence or mass suicide---that wouldn't be fun. But this year is going to be different. I CAN FEEL IT IN MY BONES. (I'm at school, so I'm slightly paranoid that someone is going to come behind me and read things I've typed in all caps and be like, "wtflip is she talking about o_O" but ANYWAY..) Reading back on my old blogs, especially from '08 makes it so weird knowing that it is four years later. The fact that I'm halfway through college scares me more than anything else though...
So I posted a lot back in 2008, and I was reading something I wrote about my contacts driving my eye insane and how I had to run home and take one out, which was the right eye. I find that really interesting because the SAME EXACT THING HAPPENED TODAY. I woke up mad early this morning, because my sister had to work early and therefore needed the car. My eye was bothering me but I thought I'd be able to handle it for the day. Wrong. I was so wrong. We went to the bank first because I had to get something signed for my Intro to Education class, and the whole time my right eye was on fire. I could barely look the bank teller in the eye because every time I opened them, my right eye burned so badly that I had to close it again. It was awful. After we left I told Stephanie, " I don't think I can handle this. Do you have contact solution?!" She didn't, and so I sat there thinking of ways to removing the entire right side of my face. So I asked again to see if she had a contact case. She did, but we both realized it would be futile without solution. Finally, I begged her to take me to the hospital, so that we could go to the drug store in the hospital (the hospital is really close to the college) and get solution. As soon as I could I took out my right contact and have been blind in that eye all day. Just like back in '08. Some things have never changed.
So far nothing dramatic or drastically different has happened this year. Granted, it's only day 11 of 2012, and there's about 355 days left so who knows. This year's a leap year, which I'm really excited about. I want to do something fun on the day that won't come back for another four years.
I still can't believe how fast life is going.
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